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For those of you who know me well, you’ll certainly be aware of the physical challenges I’ve been experiencing. They have honestly seemed to be occurring in succession of each other for many, many months! While I am immensely grateful I am not suffering from a deteriorating illness, broken bones, or invasive surgery procedures, my preference would be to skip all this crap! But that’s not how life works, and that’s not what’s real, so I continue to be on the mend! We last saw me with dislocated rib, then flu, with eye infections coming and going in between. Right knee screaming occasionally. That’s ok. Right knee is sufficiently gagged with healing! Left ankle is now shouting at me through a megaphone and is requiring ice regularly, as well as a much slower walking pace. Forget running for now. All these debilitating events alter a person’s mood and mental state. This has also required healing so as to not default to comfort eating taking the form of a false bandaid.

Aaaaaaannnnnddddd then….last week before I had to board my early morning flight, accidentally locked myself out of my apartment at 5am. I was locked in my own parking garage just shortly before my flight. I began to worry. A LOT! Perhaps I could have missed my flight, stressfully rebooked, and arrived much later. (Because missing a flight and rebooking is never “stress-less.!” I put forth as much effort as my tired, 2 hours of sleep, body and mind could exert to find a solution. Ultimately, after recently shooting with famous comic book artist George Perez, I still retained the residual response to the situation as being fully capable to conquer it now. In lieu of accepting defeat, I made the evaluation that I had the what it took to vault the rusty, tall, dirty, spike tipped iron security gates. In full force super heroine mind set I jumped high and hoisted my entire body to very top horizontal bar. I viewed the ground I needed to land on beyond the rusty gate. I said to myself: PLEASEEEEEE just don’t break any bones! Being shoeless on one foot (in order to prop open garage with other shoe just incase of total lock out) I throw right leg over, caught my legging, cut my bum! Made it half way- Flight to catch. Ok: It’s a “Mission Impossible” maneuver, left leg is thrown over and left cheek is cut slightly less worse than the first. Right hand is cut. More cuts and bruises found later because of sheer exhaustion and loss of memory. My feet hit the ground. I landed safely, Victorious! I made my flight, got to my gate, peed, got water, boarded. I had just the perfect amount of time, to fit in one big disaster just before my flight. 

Plus my ankle injury, and an invisible neck injury not shown, here are some photos from an accumulation of disasters.





Just so everyone feels better, including myself, I must end with this very cheerful and most inspirational boob photo. Here’s looking at the bright side……

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Dungeon Whore

This week I received a new bondage slut, to my line up of quivering slaves who bid for my attention and expertise. I truly enjoy taking away your freedom, manipulating your gutter mind, and training you to serve me. You will execute any task I present to you with genuine desire to please. Manual labor, solitude, restraint, denial, punishment, and sexual perversions are all activities required of you, should you find the will power it takes to enter my dungeon on your knees. Here are a few anonymous images I’d like to share with you of my new bondage bitch. Oh, how I love to rope up a slutty, CD whore!

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“Sisterhood of Superheroines”

This week it was my honor and sincere pleasure to work with comic book artist George Perez on his continuing series: “Sisterhood of Superheroines.”I performed and dressed as my character “Prism” who yields the power of light. George Perez designed my costume 16 years ago. I have taken good care of it, and luckily, it still fits! Hahaha! I am the cousin of “Daisy Chain” played by the sexy blonde, Stacy Burke. Who doesn’t love putting on high heel boots and a cape and saving the world with her favorite model girlfriends?? I will name a few of the other sexy, amazing model/wrestlers that are included in the series incase they are your favorite too: Tylene Buck, Diana Knight, Akira Lane, Christina Carter, Ariel X, Sahara Huxely, Angela Sommers, Kimberly Jane, Stacy Burke, and Me! We all have different powers and come together as a team called “The Sisterhood” so we can save the world together in very skimpy, colorful costumes and boots! If you love cosplay, George Perez, or any of the models I mentioned, you can find us all performing magical, superheroine moves at

We shot installment 2 earlier this week, and there will be more to come! So visit to see all of us gorgeous ladies of wrestling in action! I can’t wait for the next shoot! I heard a rumor, that my cousin (Stacy Burke) and myself may get an upgrade in costumes since we are the legends of the George Perez superheroine wrestling saga. Our costumes are old, but matching, but just a little worn out. Stay tuned to see action, special effects, battles of good and evil, and victory for all mankind!

Here are a few sample photos I’d like to share with you from our shoot this week.

Sahara Huxely, Jewell Marceau, Stacy Burke, George Perez, Kimberly Jane and Angela Sommers

   Sahara Huxely & Stacy Burke

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A Message To Very Important People

I would like to send a genuine, heart felt thank you & extension of sincere gratitude to the customers, fans, & friends who recently sent me many useful housewarming gifts, that I truly needed. My recent move, was urgent, abrupt, & unexpected. I was notified in an undesirable way that caused me much worry & stress. I did not have the time to mail “thank you” notes to the wonderful people who stepped up & into my life to lend me a hand & needed support. Mostly due to an unexpected rib injury that occurred during my move, followed by a crippling illness that bestowed upon me a 103 fever. I’m am forever grateful to those of you who helped me when I was sick, and helped me set up parts of new home when I was unable to lift anything. What a mess this has been! True friendship was displayed to me from areas I wasn’t even expecting. And what an eye opening beautiful gift. Once again, thank you from the bottom of my heart to all of you who stepped up for me. You know who you are, from all around the world. What blessings my eyes now see. I’m here, steady & strong to return the support & love. Call on me! My head’s not above water yet, but all of you dear ones have inspired me to get me little feet paddling in that deep water I’m in!
Thank you with love- Jewell Marceau

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“Eyes Wide Shut” exclusive BDSM Multi-Mistress Party

Coming Friday Jan. 19th starting at 9pm-1am in the beautiful dungeon space Ivy Manor located in L.A.’s downtown district you will find all your kinkiest desires available to be made a reality! Buy your tickets now here:
Space for attendees does become limited. Don’t miss out on this experience of your lifetime! Gorgeous, clean play space, top end BDSM furniture and equipment, and the sexiest, safest, most well known Dominas in the industry all in one place. Your fantasy is waiting…..

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Christmas 2017

I wasn’t sure what my plans would be for Christmas this year. Being single and not close to family, the holidays can be a difficult time. Any holiday or event that requires that “family” must come together and “fellowship” and “make merry” makes me very uncomfortable. It has always bothered me that they don’t create advertisements or commercials at Christmas depicting people without families, or husbands, or wives, or pets, or even friends nearby. And so many hard workers out there have no choice but to go to their job. And I’ll never understand why Thanksgiving is right before Xmas? That is just too much family exposure, too much eating, spending, people pleasing….I think they should move Thanksgiving to summer time. A six month break in between holidays just makes sense! To my wallet and my sanity! I decided to go to Disney Land & California Adventure on a hopper pass. We arrived at 8am and, believe it or not, we closed the park down leaving at an exhausted 12:30am!! They do say it’s the happiest place on earth! Does it look like I’m having fun? I even bought my first pair of “ears!”





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Creating memories…..

The best part of my Christmas season has been visiting Chicago! It was ice age cold!! And it snowed! And I loved it! Here is a short time line of photos documenting my journey.

This is the view from my window during my stay. And my first bit of snow!

Ready to hit the night life of Chicago!

Outdoor Christmas Tree! Burrr…..

This is me!! NOT ice skating!! I can balance myself in towering heels but blades?? On ice??? Eeeek! That’s real tricky. I’ll pass!

Here I am at the giant clitoris!! Downtown Chicago! And everyone wanted to touch it?? Pervs!!

This is my view from the 20th floor of the Peninsula Hotel while enjoying a break for lunch at the Peninsula’s Spa. (My second visit!) Chicago has certainly caused my breasts to grow larger!! Ahem….Thank you Chicago Style Deep Dish Pizza!

I do love Christmas Trees! I love them BIG! And I love them SPARKLY! Here I am next to the gorgeous Christmas Tree in the lobby, showing off my new, most favorite hosiery! Look closely: “BONDAGE WOLFORDS!” My Fantasy Cum True! Take a look! These legs and hosiery are worth sharing!!

I enjoyed watching the Puccini opera from front and center box seats in a beautiful theater. “Turandot” was the performance I saw by Puccini during my visit. The story was riveting and entirely compelling the whole way through! Turandot is a princess with some kind of attitude!! Boy was she a mean lady! If a man desired to court her, they were required to solve 3 riddles. If they failed, she chopped off their heads! (I think) One determined Prince solved her riddles, fell deeply in love with this incredibly “large,” mean lady, with an extraordinary voice, even though her evil heart prompted her to murder his best friend! And he loved her anyway! Tremendous devotion. Yes I was impressed. I also loved that it was an Italian opera and the entire location of the performance was China. (Or Japan-but I think China) This was one of my very favorite experiences during my stay!

Here I am sitting on “Santa’s” lap at the Peninsula Hotel after having the most spectacular primping day ever! First, I worked out in their awesome gym, next I got my hair cut, colored, and styled, next a 90 minute deep tissue, hot stone massage, then a divine body scrub treatment, then lunch by the pool, then a glorious facial, then a so-so mani-pedi. I really felt like a Princess, although I will definitely choose an alternative location for a mani-pedi. The Peninsula beats the Ritz Carlton by far. I visited them twice!! After a long, luxurious day of spa treatments, I enjoyed a lovely dinner there to end the evening right!

And lastly, here are my “good-bye Chicago” flowers! A lovely, gift of fragrance, beauty, and memories of my most perfect visit to the famous, beautiful windy city of Chicago! I will miss you deep dish pizza! Ain’t none like you in any other city! (I think you have NYC beat!)

I love you Chicago!

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Chicago Is…..My Kind of Town!

Happy Holidays Chicago! I am so happy to be here for part of the Christmas Season! I landed at Midway airport Wednesday afternoon. I started my trip with an elegant High Tea at the swanky Drake Hotel followed by a lovely dinner and my first snow flurries of the year! So pretty! I love snow and cold weather! (For about 2 weeks ONLY!) Thursday was followed by a 6 hour long day at the spa. I had my first facial! Yes! The kind that doesn’t come exploding out of some invasively swollen penis! It was delightfully perfect! I had a very nice massage as well. It was another first for me! It was the first time I ever had a masseuse fall asleep while massaging me! I was slightly offended, but hoping he had a good time partying it up the night before??? After the spa, I enjoyed the “Nutcracker” ballet. A Christmas classic! It really feels like true Christmas time once you’ve seen the Nutcracker live or recorded. Now I am in the Christmas mood! And boy is my meal plan shot to all HELL, so I high tailed it to the closest gym today to work off some of those delicious calories I am fully enjoying putting in my mouth. And now friends, I must depart as I am going to doll myself up and squeeze myself into my favorite red dress by “Stop Staring” clothing line, a pair of silky Wolfords hosiery, and my sexy black pumps all to enjoy the Italian opera “Puccini” tonight! First an early dinner, next a short history lesson on the opera itself, then I am committed to a 3.5 hour opera! I cannot wait! Bye for now! Here are a few images I’d like to share with you from my arrival here! I’ve been so distracted by beauty in downtown Chicago, I keep forgetting to take photos! There is something to be said for putting your phone down and enjoying the moment. Have a great weekend and enjoy the updates!

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I’m finally recovering from a dislocated rib on my left side. Treatment has finished, but the doctor has advised me that I am still not completely healed. Movement has been challenging & I’m forced into a slow pace. Be careful ladies. I truly believe 22 years of wearing my corsets too tight while playing out our BDSM fantasies had leant itself to this injury. The breathe constriction & unnecessary compression corsets cause for extended periods of time is not good for your body. Corset training is risky as an adult. This is the type of injury you can incur from excessive corset training. I’m grateful to finally be feeling better after over a month of forced down time and treatment. I must say, I am very scared to put on a tightly, cinched in corset ever again.

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Thanksgiving 2017

I hope you all had a nice Thanksgiving! I’ve really been challenged this fall with many obstacles. I’ve been held back from being as active as I want to be. So I wanted to make sure I had a productive Thanksgiving rather than a lethargic, lazy, stuffed with food holiday. I signed myself up for a short 10k race Thanksgiving morning. It doesn’t really compare to the marathons I conquered in the recent past, or the body building competitions I placed in previously, but it’s a start for me getting back in touch with my love for a vigorous, challenging fitness regime. I woke up at 3am Thanksgiving morning with tremendous pain in my stomach. I’ve had this pain all week and at 3am, it was raging at it’s worst. I figured I could lay in bed, miserable, not able to sleep and forced to focus on the pain or I could get up and get dressed and distract myself from the pain in my body. I told myself: even if I just walk the entire course: it’s OK. And I did walk most of it! I was UNCOMFORTABLE the entire course. I ran some, then the pain reared up and I walked more. I ran into some friends from the running group I participated in last year called the L.A. Running Club. It was a very nice surprise, as I assumed I’d be completing the race alone. Well, I did end up running alone, but we all met up again at the finish line. We gave hugs of congratulations and took very proud selfies! I’ve included some photos from my successful race day. Even though I had severe discomfort the entire time, I am very glad I showed up. I was reunited with friends, I received a medal, I am officially back in the game of fitness after recovering from a rib injury, and it was an exceptionally beautiful day to be outside. I enjoyed a nice dinner and a great movie with a friend. I assume my terrible stomach pains are from more bad news I received last week. But by this morning the pain finally subsided. I hope you all were able to make your Thanksgiving holiday tailored to your joys and pleasures. Thanksgiving does not have to be spent with family, it does not have to involve turkey, or football, or pumpkin pie, or children, or old people (unless your old!) You don’t have to announce what you are grateful for, out loud, in front of a full table of people. It really isn’t mandatory that all Thanksgivings look like what we see on TV. Movies and television are not real life. (Neither is porn.) It becomes hard to remember that when the media thrusts an idea at us of the holidays looking and feeling a particular way. When we see these contrived images the media creates and we realize that’s not what our life looks like, we feel like something is missing. What we celebrate on Thanksgiving I simply think should be celebrated everyday: Being grateful for even the smallest gift. The tiniest grace. Even when the irony of life occurs, everything is going to shit, for years, but just this week, maybe someone didn’t steal your parking spot this time, maybe someone held a door open for you instead of walking away in their own hurried stress, maybe this time when you ordered food and it was late, you got your meal free, maybe you found a piece of paper on your car that said “have a beautiful day” instead of an ad that essentially is trash that says “buy my shit.” When life is at it’s worst, it’s still good to be thankful for even your pinky toe. If you have one? Being grateful for even just the smallest thing, does make the pain of life ever so slightly less. Any relief is worth it. I highly encourage you and I invite you to be thankful for something every single day. Maybe the neighbor’s dog didn’t shit in your yard once yesterday? Being silently grateful, privately inside your quiet little heart is ok too.

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